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Me and Racks

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Me and Racks: A History

Tony Huggins’ bike won an award for Best City Bike at the North American Handmade Bicycle Show

The very first rack I made

…was in 2003, not long after I’d taken a class with Tim Paterek to learn how to make bike frames. Tim had written and edited The Paterek Manual for Bicycle Framebuilders, a long, arduous manual detailing step-by-step methods for bicycle frame construction. To supplement the book, one could also get a series of 6 or 8 homemade VHS tapes featuring Tim in his workshop wielding tools and a torch, his moustache waggling as he delivered a detailed, step-by-step instructional monologue. The videos also boasted rare guest appearances by Yoda (RIP), Tim’s bony, geriatric siamese shop cat whose valuable commentary on frame building was delivered with a gravelly, guttural yowl.

After I’d completed the frame course with Tim he decided to make another video that showcased techniques for hand-making custom racks and stems. He’d programmed his original bicycle fitting system in DOS, and Tim had actually given me a floppy disc along with his book and the VHS tapes as a part of the frame course. Whereas bicycle frame design had mostly plateaued, digital camera technology was rapidly evolving and in the spirit of modernity Tim invested in a video camera that could burn video to DVD. Regardless of the camera’s advancement, Tim still needed someone to press the red button, manipulate the tripod, and pan it to keep him, his moustache, and his working hands centered in the frame. He invited me to come out to his workshop and help on the day set for video recording.

I was hungry for knowledge the way some people eat paint; undiscerning, a bit self-disgusted, unable to digest, missing crucial elements for nutrition. Not just for bikes, but for everything; for experience, meaning, work, belonging, all of it. I was ravenous for learning, wanted to go everywhere, read everything, know how and why and wherefore this messy world functioned and to seek a context into which I might fit — thus far I hadn’t had any luck with that. It was like an unhealthy tic, I devoured anything relating to life and literature and substance.

This paint-eating metaphor opens a lot of questions about my past, which I’m getting around to, slowly, but regarding the day we video recorded, I wasn’t much help because I was so enamored by what Tim did. It felt like a great secret was being revealed to me. I’d never even thought about fabricating something like this. Tim bent these skinny tubes, notched and cleaned their ends, then used the torch to brass-braze them together, all the while talking the process through. For me it clicked, and kept clicking throughout the day. Seeing this rear touring rack form before my eyes, something cracked open for me. It was so organic, so beautiful, made by hand. I was like, Wait, I get it… I can do this.

Waterproof Ortlieb Panniers — ready to tour

By this point in my life I’d put a lot of miles into bike touring, having ridden most of the way across the country, toured in Ireland, Northern Italy, Croatia, Slovenia, always destitute, living on a budget more frayed than an old shoestring, always just barely getting by. Early on I’d invested in waterproof Ortlieb panniers, which I’d put on layaway at River City Bicycles in Portland. Remember layaway? Bless River City for their patience, it took me months of rolling burritos and other near-death minimum wage employment experiences to finish paying for. As far as racks went, I hadn’t thought about them at all beyond their function. In those days there weren’t many rack options available and all of them were ugly, kind of a stain on the beauty of the bicycle. Rack manufacturers had one or two models they made to fit every frame, which was impossible. Bicycles vary too much, and some bikes just aren’t meant to hold racks. Consequently most racks fit badly if at all, requiring creative strapping and weird adaptors to stay attached. If a rack did happen to fit properly it was often only by an accident of design. Usually they sat too high over the wheel, or the upper platform listed away behind the rider like a dump truck dropping a load.

A very rare old photo with my Stumpjumper in touring mode. This was taken in Portland in about 1995. Notice the cloud of darkness I hid in, the all-black clothes, down to the socks. Also, look at the way the rear rack lists backwards like it’s dumping something into my lap, symbolizing, perhaps, a sort of Karmic retribution.

With bikes, as with everything else in my little life, I was cheap because I was perpetually broke. From the outside it may have appeared my poverty was a choice, but at the time it didn’t feel like one. The simplest explanation is that I had problems working for other people. There’s a lot to unpack in this statement, and again, this is another, much larger, story. I’m working on it, and I promise you’ll get to read it as soon as it’s in some kind of shape.

Back then, regarding racks, even if there’d been better options I would still have bought the cheapest thing I could get my hands on and figured out how to make it work. Duct tape, baling wire, hose clamps, screw the paint, fitted with help of a mallet, pliers, whatever. It was a rack, it’s only job to hold bags. For the longest time I thought, Who cares what it looks like? It doesn’t matter.

My first hand made bike was a lugged & fillet brazed fixed gear. So cool, I thought. And so uncomfortable. Hand painted (spray paint), co-op found parts, Full Wood fenders.

My bike, which happened to be my first and last “real” bike before I took Tim’s class and learned to make my own, was a 1991 Specialized “Stumpjumper.” An adapted mountain bike — meaning I put slick tires and a rack on it — this is what I toured on.

As an aside, I was only able to afford this bike because of a dubious insurance claim after a guy, an ex-friend, had been transformed literally overnight by his newfound love of crack cocaine. One day I left my crappy Peugeot mountain bike at his apartment and by the next day when I came to pick it up it was no longer there. Dude had traded it for a $40 rock. For clarity, that’s a crack rock, a little buttery-white nugget of euphoria some people find exceedingly hard to resist. I’m not mocking it — addiction is real. I’m kind of mocking myself for having landed in this situation. But such was my life back then.

Now, as an aside to the aside, and to be totally transparent, I was not some blameless innocent to whom bad things just happened. When the Peugeot came to me it was likely stolen. I’m pretty sure it was, but at the time I failed to ask. I bought it, the Peugeot, in Colorado for $50 from a sketchy dude I’d met shortly after getting a paycheck from my dishwasher/ prep cook job. I lived in the mountains, thought I might disappear there, kind of like Chris McCandless when he walked off “into the wild” in Alaska. Maybe I was thinking about it, but it was like 47 degrees below zero and I hadn’t seen the ground for the snow in months. I think I bought the bike as a sort of lame prayer for spring to please already arrive. I ignored the obvious possibility that the bike might be stolen because I didn’t want to think about it. Even then, experiences in my life clearly evidenced that Karma is real, an active and dynamic accounting that’s here for all of us, like it or not. You may or may not believe in it, and I won’t argue with you. When I take up this one thread, from Peugeot to Stumpjumper, looking back, then forward in time and watching how things came to pass, I’m just saying, bike for bike, the story is almost too neat to be “real,” and it definitely points towards what, to my mind, looks a lot like Karmic retribution. I can be an idiot (Sí señor!) and then sometimes I stumble upon clarity. Putting on blinders and not thinking about it was not going to save me. Not this time and not any other.

How many karmic life lessons came to me like this, like blunt head trauma? As though I had a guardian angel who knew I was too dim to hear a message without being beaten with it. Yet, also, for a long time, acting tough and arrogant, aka scared and idiotic, I laughed hollowly at these lessons, the doomed accounting too obvious to be anything but a joke, I believed, with me and my little life events as the punchline. That, my friends, is a hard-living spiral, let me tell you.

Regardless of its origin, though, the Peugeot was the only wheels I had, and when it was gone it was gone. And too, a dude I’d thought was my friend. In retrospect, though, this friend and I weren’t doing each other any good. We’d fed off each other’s lesser impulses and kind of egged each other on, traveled down some dark and gnarled paths together. In the end I’m certain he was better off being rid of me, and me him.

Anyway, where was I before all these detours? Let’s go back to Tim’s shop, him making his rack video, me there, kind of helping but not really helping.

Tim’s gift, a Rigid tubing bender

Over a few hours, seeing how Tim cut tubes and brazed this rack together, possibilities opened for me like the sun breaking through storm clouds. I couldn’t wait to try making a rack for myself. Tim gifted me a Rigid conduit bender for 3/8” tubing, the same hand bender he used in the video, as well as a couple of lengths of appropriately sized chromoly steel tubing. I took these things to the little garage I rented from my friend William and got to work. The Stumpjumper was no longer with me because of a long series of misadventures, battles with metaphorical monsters, etc., that came to a strangely Odyssean ending in Ithaca, New York. The stories within stories are endless.

Look at this kid! Making a bike trailer for RCB around 2004.

Not long before helping with the rack video, I’d finished constructing my first fillet brazed bicycle frame. If you didn’t know, the term fillet brazing refers to an older, more artisanal method of joining steel tubes with molten bronze. It’s how I build bike frames to this day.

Anyway, my first frame was kind of a disaster because of alignment issues. I’d tried to muscle the frame straight and buckled the down tube which felt like the end of the world to me. But once I’d cussed and thrown some things around the shop I got over myself and cut the kinked down tube out and replaced it. I finished the bike, stuck wheels on it and rode it with a mixture of real and feigned pride. I was hard on myself, wanted to do everything perfectly from the beginning, and when it wasn’t I was certain it confirmed I was a failure and should stick with my minimum wage life. But no, not that! I couldn’t forget this bike was mine, I’d made it, and it did what it was supposed to: it moved forward when I pushed on the pedals and seemed to track fairly straight. Maybe not the prettiest thing, kind of Frankenstein, but cool in its own freakish way. Anyway, this bike became the platform onto which I built my first touring rack.

It took me the better part of two weeks to bend and notch tubes and braze all the pieces together, perhaps far longer than it should have. I savored it. Every step of the way I stopped and ogled what I’d just done. I couldn’t get over how progressively more amazing it was. Look, I said to myself. Look what I’ve done! I made the upper deck perfectly parallel to the ground, no listing, no dump truck dumping. I had to be creative with the upper attachment points because the rack mounts on the frame were too high, but I did OK with it. The fit was solid, no weird adapters required. I brazed a bottle opener on the back almost like I’d invented it. How had anyone ever opened their beer before I came along? A celebration was in order!

To me the whole process was purely love-powered, it felt like puzzle pieces falling into place in my soul as I formed, fitted, and brazed each tube. Every addition increased the rack’s beauty tenfold. And, crazier still, I was doing it, it was me making this beautiful thing. I’d been so certain I was incapable, like I knew beauty existed but it was not for me to have, to hold, definitely not to make with my own hands. It speaks volumes to how lacking in meaning my work had been to this point. Washing dishes, mowing lawns, cleaning up after others, cooking eggs, cashiering, folding boxes, sweeping floors, stocking shelves, chopping onions, cleaning up dog shit, so many minimum wage ways of trading my time for things that mattered to no one, least of all me. I was famished for something like this.

Dave G.’s fancy Full Wood Fenders

By this time I worked at River City Bicycles (RCB), which turned out to be the best — and last — hourly job I had before I started working for myself full time. The owner of RCB, Dave G., had a side project making and selling beautiful wooden bicycle fenders. To finish off the rack I asked Dave if he’d cut a wooden base plate. I gave him dimensions and he cut it from a piece of Ipe, pronounced “ee-pay,” a weather-resistant hardwood, which I carefully drilled and bolted down.

Once the wood was on there and the rack fitted to the bike I leaned it up against the fence outside William’s garage and popped open a beer — and yes, it was so easy to open because of this new invention I’d installed on the rack! It was a sunny Portland afternoon and I sat in the yard and stared at it for hours. The bike, the rack, individually, and all of it together. I could hardly believe what I was looking at. I periodically went close and traced its lines with my fingers as though I needed to make sure they were real, then I’d move away again and savor the overall picture. I probably drank an entire six pack while admiring what I’d made, and stayed out there until it was fully nighttime. I thought it was the most beautiful thing I’d ever seen on a bicycle and in an unexpected way it completed the whole picture. My freakish bike had just needed this one piece to bring it all together and attain something approaching elegance.

Sunburst basket design made for someone special

After this first rack I was hooked. In the creative arena of rack making I could do whatever I wanted, make whatever I envisioned, and in the end, so long as I did my part decently well, brazed the joints solidly and built it relatively straight, that’s all that mattered. The aesthetic would follow the function and leave room for a bit of flair and individuality. I’d never before been given the opportunity to be creative in this way, definitely not as a job. And straight away people started offering to pay me for racks. Bike people saw them the way I did, as something that enhanced the sexiness of their rides rather than being these dumpy things bolted on like a bad afterthought.

Many basket style racks, orders flooded in

Early on I discovered how difficult it was to make bicycle frames and to get them right. The learning curve was so much greater than with racks. The number of steps to make a frame, the materials expense, just generally the stakes were higher, and there were already so many great bikes and bike makers in the world. My tool skills just weren’t there. I’d yet need years of practice.

But racks! The field was wide open, nobody I knew was doing it properly. Bruce Gordon (RIP), maybe, but his designs were standardized, and as functional and “right” as they were I was sure I could take things further. I didn’t want factory repetition, I wanted art!

Rack making is hard work, it’s fussy and tedious, requiring patience and persistence, but I had nothing else going. I would have worked myself down into the dirt if only I could have done something meaningful. Rack making felt achievable, accessible, and it offered plenty of space for creativity. And better still, it taught me the same tool skills I needed to get better at making bike frames. I once described it to my friend Alex by saying that each rack I build is like making a couple-three little bicycles, it has at least as many tubing joints, and all the same kinds of steel cutting, fitting, clean up, and brazing. So much good practice while making something practical. A win/win for sure!

A few more words on Karma, if I may. I’ll keep it short, and say that just as bad acts may beget bad outcomes, curiosity, creativity and the desire to bring beauty into the world begets joy and love, which in my humble opinion is where we find meaning. To simplify, you aim for good and good comes back to you. I’ve been lucky in about ten-thousand different ways, just to have made it through the first half of my life. And then getting the chance to do this, to work for myself, be creative, and make things, has been one of the most significant. Racks and bikes, amazing. How lucky is it that my everyday question is something like, how can I be in service to meaning-making today? Where’s the beauty and how can I achieve it?

My life isn’t all about making racks — thankfully! Or bikes for that matter. But I’ve learned to rely on them as a practice, and a way of asking and answering these existential questions. Each rack and bike, each step in the process, when I focus in it’s a way of honoring the search. And for me, in my simplified little world, bike and rack lessons translate. I ask it what it wants to be, build it, put it out in the world, and start over, again and again. It’s real, and it’s a metaphor. Both.

Whether I’ve succeeded or failed isn’t really my place to say, and it doesn’t matter because it doesn’t ever end. Even when I end, the story will keep on. All I can do is do the work, aim for best possible outcomes, keep at it, and share what I find with others.


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The Lesson: Remembering what's important in teaching and learning

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Isaac with the torch work

Over the past several months I had the honor of teaching/mentoring this young guy through the process of making a bicycle frame. It was a middle school project he had to complete in order to graduate.

He rocked it, and this coming year he's heading on to high school. Hopefully not before taking the summer to put a bunch of miles on his new bike!

If you’d like to read more about the mentoring process, please click the link below. And if you’d like to hear other stories from me in the future, please subscribe to my Substack account.

The Lesson by Cycles by Joseph Ahearne

Remembering what's important in teaching and learning

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June 15, 2025
As an update, Isaac officially graduated yesterday. This past week all the students in his class had a presentation day to show off their projects and discuss what it was like, what they learned, and to thank their mentors. The mentors were invited to say a few words about it as well.
It was amazing seeing all the different projects these young people did. One young woman created, choreographed, and put on a dance performance; another wrote lyrics and guitar music which they performed and recorded. A young man sourced local wood and shaped a beautiful surfboard, and another built and wired a set of speakers. Each project was amazing, and the whole event gave me hope for the future. These young people are so inspiring.

A huge thanks to Metropolis Cycles for their help in finishing out the assembly and dialing in Isaac’s bike. You folks are the best.

As always, thank you for reading and supporting!

A job well done

Some Wins

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Writing on Life and Death

Note to readers: This writing is more personal than what I usually post here. I love to write and tell stories, and I’ve tended to post mostly bicycle-centric writing. They are personal in the sense that they’re my stories about bicycles, but there’s an invisible line I’ve drawn that delineates between what I’ve thought is appropriate for a bike-biz website and what’s personal. This is my problem, not yours; I understand that I am my business and my business is me; we are separate, but we’re also the same. Here I’m attempting to bring them closer together. If you’re only interested in reading about bikes you might want to skip this post and wait for the next.

This is an extended excerpt from a piece I recently posted on my Substack platform. Often, but not always, there’s a bicycle somewhere in my story, just like there’s usually something bike related in my life. But, you know, I lived a lot of different kinds of lives before I began making frames and racks and the rest, and some of these stories I think are worth telling. It’s up to you to decide if they’re worth reading.

If, by chance, you do, please head over and sign up on my Substack account and you’ll get the latest writing from me on bikes and life and all the rest.

Thank you for reading. Every shared story is an opportunity for connection, and here we are.


Some Wins

Sometimes when I sit down to write I become paralyzed by the number of possible things to write about. It’s a small existential crisis that can happen when I’m confronted with a blank page. Like, why would I write about one thing and not another? I could write about my new garage or the collapsable rear rack I’ve built for a travel bike. I could talk about the struggles of self-motivation in the winter when it’s cold and dark, or I could tell you about my friends who recently drove down from Seattle and nearly died in a car crash. I could explore the current political nightmare unfolding in this country, although I don’t want to bore you, or myself, nor do I want to make myself throw up.

Ben Franklin said it well

Maybe you can imagine me sitting here in front of my computer at around 5 in the morning with a cup of coffee steaming beside me, hands poised over the keyboard, a brand new document open on the screen, all white space except for the little cursor blinking steadily like a timer telling me how much of my life is passing. I can sometimes sit frozen in this position for ten minutes, twenty minutes, my fingers not moving, my body leaned slightly forward as if into a swirl of ideas, waiting for the first words to materialize. All I need is a single word or phrase to flutter out of the fog and inspire my fingers to type.

When it’s the bleak period in the middle of winter and I feel stuck, lost, unmotivated, rather than getting hung up on what I’m not doing, a helpful practice is to recount wins. Big or small, it doesn’t matter. Just acknowledging that I have done a few things besides lay around mouth breathing, eating bonbons on the sofa or whatever. I’m an active person, I like having projects and problems to solve, questions to answer, things to make, ideas to explore.

Let me recount some wins.

1) It took over a week, but I was able to organize and consolidate my steel tubing. I sorted everything by diameter and shape, marked each tube, gathered like with like and stowed them in boxes. Doing so allowed me to mostly clear out the back bedroom of my house, which has been a catch-all cluster-F since I moved in. I’ve been saving this one closet just for my steel, a dry space to help with rust prevention. I built sturdy shelves in it and can now easily see and access my inventory. Simply knowing what I have is amazing. Organization is definitely a win.

3) A few days ago I finished a rear rack for a travel bike. This is a prototype travel rack, the design has been floating in my ideas for months and I finally made it in steel. The rack breaks apart and packs flat, fits in the suitcase with the rest of the bike. It’ll hold small panniers, and better still — it’s the right size for the frame and the small wheels so it doesn’t look like a badly fitted add-on. And with this rack the travel bike suddenly becomes a viable touring rig. A simple, sensible rack for the win.

4) Speaking of travel racks, have you seen the newly updated Page Street website? The “Viajero” travel bike is the focus, and I’m taking orders now. There is a load of information on the site, please take a look and let it inspire you.

A newly renovated website, definitely a win.

The Viajero is the best travel bike in the world, in my humble opinion

6) Lastly, for now, the two biggest wins I can think of are my health and my life. I put these together because both have come up recently.

One, I got the flu. I don’t get sick very often. The last time was with Covid just at the beginning of lock down. Hard to believe that was almost 5 years ago. Being sick sucks, especially when I have so many things to do and people waiting for me to make their bikes. I was only laid up a few days, but the mental fall-out from being physically depleted takes longer to get past.

The simple reminder to be grateful for being alive is the last thing I’ll discuss here. Seems obvious, but I think we forget. I know I do. I mentioned earlier that my friends were in a car crash. This was the last Thursday before Xmas, they were driving down from Seattle, ostensibly to bring an old Raleigh road frame to me to see if I could fix a cracked chain stay.

Straight on

A young man working as a pizza delivery driver shot out of a parking lot at just the perfectly wrong moment. My friend Alex, who was driving, later said all he saw was a split-second flash of the kid’s minivan slicing across his vision. No time to brake, full t-bone impact at about 40 mph. It simultaneously set off all 8 airbags in the Subaru. It was like an 8-gun salute punctuating the massive crunch of metal and exploding glass. That’s how fast it can happen. The airbags saved their lives

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When I arrived to pick them up, Alex and Laura looked houseless beside their pile of stuff. My car’s headlights lit them up and I saw their tears, their faces streaked, puffy and red. The wind slapped at them and they were barely out of the rain. It was the saddest looking couple I think I’ve ever seen. They had scrapes, sore spots, bumps and bruises, but the worst damage was to their sense of safety. Their world had just cracked and now appeared to be dangerous, terrifying.


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Again, thanks for reading. The practice of living is the hardest thing we do, it’s so big, and we get better at it when we’re in it together.

Life Cycle of a Workshop

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The Page Street workshop has seen a lot of stuff.

Page Street

It was April 2006 when Jay and I moved onto Page Street. It was my 4th workshop since I’d begun building bicycle frames, and I was still relatively new at it, one of the youngsters. Of the shops that came before, this one was far and away the best space I’d worked in. I was cheap because I was poor, always after the lowest possible rent. This meant dealing with leaky roofs, killer drafts, dim lighting, too-friendly rodents, unstable time-frames. I avoided leases because I didn’t want to be tied down. I thought of myself as a traveler and didn’t want to impinge on the lifestyle, my freedom to move. And yet, I was beginning to realize that if I wanted to be in the business of building bikes I needed a stable place in which to make it happen.

Seat stays inspired by the St. Johns bridge (This photo was out the back door of our workshop. You can see the foundation for condos being poured in the foreground.)

The previous workshop Jay and I shared was a condemned warehouse in St. Johns, up in North Portland, just beside the bridge. Rent was $90/month — $45 each — and that winter was hard. The building was so full of holes I may as well have built frames out in the yard. I was tougher back then, though, or just dumber. You could say I had different priorities — I was more willing to suffer to save some cash. We were in the St. Johns shop for almost a year before the owners sold the building, and it got bulldozed to make way for condos. This was one more step in the arrival of what I call “New Portland.”

Jay found the ad for the Page Street shop on Craigslist. It wasn’t exactly paradise — like the previous place it was leaky, drafty and had no heat when we moved in. But the things it had going for it were it was spacious, centrally located, and, more than anything, it was stable. We had a lease, which meant I was committing to frame building, or at least pretending to. I still needed to figure out what my business was, exactly, and how I wanted to go about things. The Page Street shop would give me what I needed to do that. Although I had no idea I’d be here for this long.

From the beginning we called this space “the shop.” Nothing formal, no capital “s,” just a place name: I’m headed to the shop. Let’s meet at the shop. And now, over the past few weeks I’ve been saying something that feels very weird: I’m moving out of the shop.

The space is a 1200 square foot rectangle with a couple of big musty back rooms for ample storage. Jay and I split the rectangle long-ways down the middle and put up sheet plastic between the front and back storage spaces to cut down on the drafts. We tried every kind of heater until we settled on a pellet stove. We stuck the flue out a window to route the smoky exhaust outside. There were at least three offices in town that would have shit themselves and shut us down if they’d seen this. I put a platform on caster wheels to hold the stove, and like, whenever we got wind of a fire inspector coming we popped the flue out of the window, wheeled the stove into the storage room and kept a straight face until we passed inspection.

Jay and I had met while working at River City Bicycles — my last job before I started building bikes full time — and Jay had a side hustle wrenching on old Mercedes diesels. He took the half of the shop with the big roll-up door to move cars in and out, and I set up my meager tools on the other side.

The shop disguise

The business that’d been here before we arrived was a good-ol’ boy race car shop called Competition Motorsports. I never figured out what exactly they did. Sold some parts, maybe installed them, money laundering, who knows? This was Old Portland, where they did things a little bit different.

When we moved in we inherited the Competition Motorsports awning. I thought this was perfect irony — I was righteously, pretentiously, into human powered machines — not motors. And for me cycling had never been competitive. I was a commuter and into bike touring.

M & J and Sherman making mouths water with French fry exhaust on our way to a bike show

Jay’s cars obviously had motors, but in my book they got a pass because he converted them to run on old frier oil. A few years later, Maggie and I co-bought a car from Jay. It was a blue ’84 Mercedes wagon we lovingly called Sherman.

At this point in my life I hadn’t owned a car in over ten years. Remember, I was cheap, and I thought the cost of owning a car was ridiculous. Remember, too, I was willing to suffer inconvenience to keep cash in my wallet. Seeing things a new way was a slow evolution.
Anyway, I built Jay a bike frame as my part of the car purchase. There was something satisfying about trading a bicycle for a car.

Filling Sherman's auxiliary tank with filtered frier oil (back when I had more hair)

Maggie and I had Sherman for years. To fuel it we went around town to various restaurants, a couple of Thai places, a burger joint, collecting their used frier oil. At the shop I set up a gravity fed filtration system to clean the oil, turning it into usable fuel. It was a hacked-together system of buckets and hoses that regularly sprung leaks and we’d end up with veggie oil slicks on the shop floor. Seriously nasty stuff, it turned to a tacky sort of shellac if I didn’t get it cleaned up right away. But on the other hand nobody was killing anyone for it, and my oil slicks weren’t destroying any oceanic ecosystems, just my clothes and shoes.

Maggie and I drove that car all over the west, to go camping and to bike shows, from BC to Baja, Mexico, almost all of it fueled on veggie oil. This is a whole other story, though, for another time.

"Old" is the key word here

Symbol of the lotus flower

To move on… All these years later the awning is still up and you see it’s kind of nasty looking. Decades of wet weather, it changes colors with the seasons. The cloth absorbs pollen in the springtime that feeds lichen and moss that flourish like it’s a living organism. Most people wouldn’t consider it storefront material, but I loved it. My preference is to be in the background, and back then I didn’t mind being somewhat difficult to find. Besides, there’s a story in it — a filthy awning, a dilapidated building, the romantic vision of beauty coming out of the muck. Hence the lotus flower on my head badge (between the feet of the “A”).

Sometimes it's hard to see the human in the room

Despite having a somewhat repellant appearance we got regular visitors, people just walking in. But for the first years it wasn’t bike people who showed up. It started a few days after Jay and I got the keys, these old white men would fling open the shop door and barge in like they owned the place. They’d stop just inside, eyes squinched up and moving all around, overwhelmed with the barrage of stuff: Bike wheels hanging from hooks, benches, vices, hand tools, helter-skelter lights, machine tools, car parts, torches, pumps, partially assembled frames, art stuff and cranks and chain rings stashed floor to ceiling, all up and down the walls. If you ever visited the shop you know how much there was to see in every square inch of the place.

With the riot of visual stimulation it was sometimes hard for these old guys to locate Jay or I in the fray, but at some point they’d see one of us at work, either me standing at my vice holding a file or Jay rolling out from under a jacked-up Benz. If they registered both of us at the same time they always turned towards Jay first. Familiarity maybe — at least what he worked on was a car.

They’d tease out the question, bewildered, “Is Ron around?”

They meant Ron, the former owner of Competition Motorsports. Either Jay or I would have to break it to them.

“Ron quit the business. The race car shop closed.”

The old guy would stand there a few beats, gumming at the news, scowling like they weren’t sure if they believed us.

As it started to sink in they’d throw a thumb back over their shoulder and plead, “But the old awning’s still up.”

Like I said, this happened for years. I called them Codger Visitations. I thought about making a sandwich-board sign to set out on the sidewalk explaining things to ward them off. But I admit I kind of liked the intrusion. I could sense that this was what it looked like when a piece of history began to fade. Like I said, Competition Motorsports was a business I associated with Old Portland — the weird, one-off shops that were here in the 90s when I first arrived, most of them gone now — the UFO shop in SW Portland, the hippy kitchen shop, Magnolia, that used to be on SE 21st & Division; the Church of Elvis downtown, the Daily Grind with their amazing pies on Hawthorne, dozens of other gems that helped give Portland its unique flavor. Everything’s always changing, right? Things come and things go.

When these old guys walked in I felt like I was witnessing how a story, or a whole batch of stories, fall away, moving from the present into the past. Pieces of Old Portland fading, turning translucent as a ghost.

To a man these race car dudes were pushing eighty years old. They sported slick bomber jackets with brand patches on the sleeves, had droopy eye sacks and white wisps of hair poking out of their tall mesh ball caps. An early breed of motor head now gone quaky, liver-spotted, and a little bit frail.

All workshops have their own sense of order

I think I knew what these old guys wanted, or at least some of it. Their excuse was to buy a part or show off their car knowledge, or learn some tidbit about how to make combustion more efficient and more powerful. But this was just a pretext. I think the truth was they came in to immerse themselves in the familiar, comforting, oily stink of a workshop. Just being there was a way for them to be near something bigger than themselves, to pay their respects to a body of knowledge and a way of being.

If you go visit any working shop you’ll likely find a massive catalogue of stuff and tools and information that is only truly accessible to the ones who dwell in it and shape the space. There’s a certain kind of intelligence, a tool knowledge, a practical comprehension of systems, the way they function and interact. Some of the smartest people out there are those whose hands get dirty while at work. You don’t even know how to properly respect it unless you know enough to know how much you don’t know. Bow to the grungy wizards, right?

Visual Shop Tour

And to be clear, I’m not (so to speak) tooting my own horn here. I’ve got a bit of baseline knowledge, I know how to use some tools and to put together a decent bike, but my skillset is very limited compared to any number of other shop people out there. Whenever I talk with one of my machinist friends, like Kristina, Roger, Oscar, or Sean C., it’s so clear I’m a hack. These people are brilliant, the breadth of their skills and knowledge base makes me feel like a toddler in a tool room.

Anyway, I was talking about Codger Visitations. I enjoyed watching these old guys chewing at their dentures as they ran their eyes over the bike wheels and partial frames hanging overhead. Craft is craft, it has a certain nobility to it whether these old guys cared for the final product or not.

Underneath, too, a part of me felt righteous about showing these old dudes the facts of a changing tide: Once upon a time there were muscle cars here, but now an environmentally friendly Mercedes mechanic and bicycle fab shop had taken over. To my thinking the world was moving in a better direction.

Put your heart into it

Bless them, though. You could still see the spark of a motor revving in their eyes. These codgers just hadn’t yet gotten the memo that this race was over.

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Change happens.

Jay and I were shop mates for a few years until he bought a house and moved his mechanic business into his garage. That was a dozen or more years ago. Afterwards, the shop became fully bicycle-centric. Mitch of MAP Bicycles got his start here and worked a few years before moving on to Chico, CA., and after him Christopher Igleheart was here for a decade until he retired. Now I’m moving my business into my own garage workshop — no more landlords, hopefully ever.

To repeat — and to be clear — I’m not quitting the business, I’m just moving out of this space. Ahearne Cycles and Page Street cycles will be up and running again in the next couple of months, as soon as I get my new shop built out and ready.

I’m going to miss this space, and I’m going to miss the people around it, connected to it. My friends. So many folks have come through over the years. The memories are rich. But I’m ready for this change.

I wonder what’s coming next for the Page Street workshop. Once I’m gone will there be scrappy old bike heads popping in, chewing at their dentures as they scowl at some youngster trying to eek out a living, asking about that old Ahearne bike builder?

Who and what business will be here to greet them?

It’s a funny feeling watching my own history here at the shop, the many years’ worth of stories, about to become the relic. It’s already happening. The first layer of new dust is beginning settle over the old world, my world, and I’m not going to be around to disturb it or clean it up. That’ll be someone else’s job.

Transitions are weird because you can’t know what’s on the other side. You can do your best to set yourself up, but the only way to find out what’s coming is to close one door, turn around, open the next and walk right on into the light.

Onward

Here we go.

I’ll see y’all on the other side.